12.29.2005

A bit grand for you isn’t it, Weaselbee?

So I’m struggling with the concept that even if i had what i THOUGHT would make me happy, i would still be unhappy. Now liz phair has a song about this, and as I remember, the cheeky punch line is, in such case, the problem is you. (in this case you is me, not you. Are you following this? Don’t worry, I’m pretty sure everything is going to be okay. And if it isn’t you/i won’t be able to tell the difference.)

Who remembers when it was in vogue (during college – where everything absurd was socially acceptable and encouraged) to refer to people as “TLOML?” does anyone out there even know what that means? It was also okay to say things like “IHML!!” and “PPM!!” I was going somewhere with this story, but I’ve forgotten where.

I stopped actually keeping a journal a little while a go. Months really. (And public blog nonsense doesn’t really replace actual reflection. I can’t have you knowing what I’m actually thinking. That sort of transparency really ruins performance art.) However, I think not taking copious notes on life leaves me feeling a little frayed around the edges. Nothing a tune-up can’t fix! Unfortunately, I am not a car.

12.27.2005

my mom is making me want to kill.

Happy holidays everyone. i was doing a really good job of updating the blog and then I slowed down again. I assume the trick is I haven’t been doing (or avoiding) any homework so I haven’t been compelled to prattle on about nothing.

I will not even try to explain how my family made Christmas dysfunctional. Remember that rotweiler (sp?) my mom got? Well she weighs like 90 lbs and is getting vicious. I just pulled chapstick out of her jaws (apparently she thinks that blistex isn’t toxic.) I need to take a shower and get dressed so I can take my dad to the eye doctor. (he’s pretty much going blind in a spooky quick.) And then when his eyes are dilated and he can’t see force him to accompany me to the nail polish store. One thing I hate about VA is complete lack of pedicure giving establishments. Sigh. Better this way, mom and dad’s Midwestern values are offended by my high mateniance grooming habits.

I also got a nano. And now I will have to stop hating on everyone else’s APPLELOVE.

I’m reading 7 Types of Ambiguity. I think I love it.

12.20.2005

there's something i need to tell you ...

The award for the BEST thing anyone has called to my attention in recent weeks goes to chuck who sent me an Ecard from an LA based organization that promotes safe sex through Ecards that inform former partners that you may have given them a sexy sexually transmitted disease. The cards are super gay-centric. I think one says, “you’re too hot to be out of commission” and has a semi naked guy toweling off. AWESOME. Check it out here and send one to all your friends. Who needs xmas cards when you can send your friends ecards about “that time I gave you scabies.”?? ( http://www.inspotla.org/ )

that is all.

12.15.2005

esquire

Today I reorganized my email and condensed my labels into 10 workable labels instead of 1 million labels including old old labels for all my first year classes. (god bless gmail.)

Today I also went to school at 8 am, and then skipped all three of my classes. It was alike a personal day, but not really because I was still at school and profoundly unhappy.

My “urge to knit” is growing. I think it tops the chart of things I would rather do than school work. As a matter of fact the only way I can stop knitting is to go to school. My favorite thing about knitting is that it has made me understand the evangelical urge that people get with jesus. For example: I really want to teach Amanda to knit. And not because she needs a ridiculous hobby (though it would be cute if she made mr. nick st. jean a scarf or Louis a kittie sweater) BUT INSTEAD because I want her to know the joy that can only come from a personal relationship with yarn.

I made super duper hot chocolate from scratch last night. And I made GALLONS of it. So now we have a mason jar of hot chocolate in the refrigerator. I want to go home and drink it, but I can’t! I am stuck at school for a little eternity (unil I finish my fabulous work study job @11pm). I really can’t believe I even bothered to come to school today at all.

The one thing I did accomplish IS I applied to co-op positions for the spring quarter. Now it probably breaks the RULES of co-op to do this but I am going to list my job prospects (alphabetically):

Boston Public Health Commission
Fidelity UK (London)
EMC
Fisher, Law office of Chaz R.
Gilmartin, Magence & Ross
Krokidas & Bluestein
Mass. Division of Capital Asset Management
Mass. Teachers’ Association
O’Reilly, Law Office of Maureen
Sherin & Lodgen

(please note, this will be embarrassing later when I don’t get any of these jobs.)

My first choice would be (oddly?) the Mass Teacher’s Association. I would also really like to be paid to live in London for three months. With the obvious exception of the one in London they’re all in Boston. I think it makes real sense to stay here right now (I’m tired), even though there is a lot of pressure from the co-op office to leave boston if I don’t plan to WORK in boston. But since I’m not going to practice anyway it does not really matter at all what I do ever, or where I do it. Right?

The exception is the labor thing – apparently DC is labor/ union hot spot, so it might make sense to try to work in DC at least once (AND LIVE WITH MOM AND DAD!!) and get some serious labor experience, if that’s what we really think we might do. (assuming the whole ‘divorce people’/family law thing isn’t going to pan.)

Tomorrow (Friday) is official CHRISTMAS COOKIE day. I am going to get up, drive sarah to her FISRT law school exam, buy some butter, go to physical therapy, and then bake 6 types of cookies for the official “joy of baking” mailing that should happen tomorrow afternoon. I’m also going to do the x-mas cards tomorrow. Yay! Holiday joy! Yay!! Alright, more T&E now, and less less chatty chat chat. xox

12.13.2005

mittens and kittens

i do not believe i have ever neglected my blog so magnificently. and i would continue with my inattention i believe indefinitely, however i am positively swamped with school work, and nothing avoids work like mindless hobbies. and since i am at my FABULOUS library work study job and not at home to knit in bed or distract smasters form her school work, my third love, the long forgotten blog, can resume importance.

Philadelphia, co-op there in federal court for three months was wonderful (hindsight and rose colored glasses included). i learned a great deal, i got a stellar evaluation, i learned to walk AND (god help me) bend my completely uncooperative left leg with newly replaced ACL. I also lived (for the first time since that fabled and enchanted summer in Rochester) with one of the most important people in my life, miss jennifer kirsch. i also had the opportunity to become close to one sarah iler. someone who has always played a magnificent supporting role in my life, but one with whom i've never had the opportunity to be truly intimate. and it was a pleasure. and they both saved my life. again and again. and then again and again. but close calls are often the mortar of life long friendship. so i'm not only not complaining, i'm greatful. xoxo

the whole law school/ Boston/ Cambridge thing is back on. by some miracle (that defies expression with any sort of brevity but could accurately be described as perseverance) i avoided my third knee surgery this November and i am now hopping and skipping all over new England (with utmost care in the snow and ice, of course).

school is a drag, but after careful consideration, i think i prefer it to working which means i should start thinking of reality delaying graduate programs to pursue in fall 2007. i think i would make an excellent medical student. or astronaut. or ballerina. i might be MOST QUALIFIED to get an LLM, so maybe i will look into that.

i'm phasing out coffee in favor of sweet delicious tea. i prefer black chai, prince of wales or Irish breakfast - though only in a pinch.

i want new mittens. but i should be shopping for others, not myself. at least not until after Xmas. feliz navidad friends!

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